Day 11

Somebody died on my trail today. Car wreck. Early this morning. I'm glad that I slept in (I'd debated on whether or not to get up early and ride or not) and avoided the whole scene. It doesn't need to be added to my list of issues this week. Actually I avoided biking altogether and ran today. Just seemed like the thing to do. I plugged in some One Tree Hill and let the drama unfold as I ran. For a silly high school drama show there is some pretty deep stuff in the writing. Every week they showcase an authors words or a famous speech in history. Can be educational if you let it be. Anyway, after that I decided it was time to pick up the novel once again. I grabbed my laptop and headed outside to the hammock. After a finishing a chapter I got distracted by looking at our ugly playhouse/shed. The first month or so of its existence it served as a playhouse. We'd use it to play school and all that stuff that young girls do. Once we grew a little bit and learned that going to school made playing school afterwards a drag it became a shed. When I moved home from college I had high hopes for this shed. However, I lack knowledge on hammer skills and have nobody to help me re-hang drywall... so it was shot to the keep dreaming corner of my brain.

Laying there in the hammock made me revisit the whole thing. I have gotten so many rejections lately with the job hunt. All I want to do is take pictures and write the rest of my life. If I could do that I would be the happiest person in the world. With all these rejections I was reminded of something that I had said back in the fall to a set of close friends. "Rejection is good for the soul." Which of course they called me a lunatic for. Then said I hadn't properly been rejected. HELLO! My life is one reject fest after the other. Especially now, and you know what? I still believe it. I think that being rejected and leveled back to your feet makes you stronger and REALISTIC. I'm a dreamer; again I have a way over active imagination. Sometimes though you have to realism or you won't succeed. Back to the hammock. I was wallowing in rejection looking at the shed when a scene from One Tree Hill came back to me. Peyton has this dream of getting a club in Tree Hill to sponsor a teen night so that they don't have to keep using their fake ID's to get in to listen to good music. She goes to Karen, Luke's mother, for some advice because she is a local cafe owner. After Peyton explains that nobody takes her seriously because of her age Karen gives her the best advice. She said, "You know Peyton all these people are saying no, but all it takes is one person to say yes." The rest is history.

So instead of trying to conquer the world and get everyone to support me I have realized that all it takes is one person to say yes. One job at a time. One customer at a time. One investor at a time (well that is if they have good money!). The rain on my parade just turned into a sprinkle. So remember that despite all the shut doors it only takes one to lead to where you need to be. Thank you One Tree Hill.